Making It & Making Plans

I survived my first week as a full-time student! :D

Well, nearly so since it’s Thursday night and not Friday for me yet, but baring an asteroid slamming Ohio, I think I’ll make it safely into the weekend.

Most wonderfully I managed to do all my homework in between classes or in the evenings so that my weekend is actually free to DO WHATEVER I WANT! :lol: (Amazing what you can accomplish when you don’t have a job!) And, oh, do I have plans…

  • Jazz will be kicking off the weekend with his scrumbdilliumptious lasagna and we will have wine with it too ;)
  • Friday night and Saturday morning will be spent ravishing my husband — you have been warned.
  • The Family Channel is having a marathon of Disney movies like Cinderella and Aladdin on Saturday afternoon; I have already begun planning out the nest I will occupy in front of the TV for the duration and shall not be disturbed (except for appropriately timed kisses).
  • In between and possible all day Sunday, I will read books. I’ve barely made a dent in my Christmas books and now there are even more new books to read. (The exception was Anne Tenino’s Too Stupid To Live. I loves my Anne.)

That’s my plans and I’m sticking to ‘em! :)

Oh! Stop by on Sunday for a 6-Sentence featuring more about Splinters. Hint: I used my private journal entry as research… ;)

A Quiet Birthday…with a Kink

First, thank you for all your encouragement about HOW to have my birthday and also for all the birthday wishes. I was busy from sunup to well past sundown, so didn’t get a chance to be online until now. I really, really thank you all! :D

How I spent my 21st Birthday

Jazz and I woke up at the usual time, but took a little extra time saying good morning to each other. Some days I get up with him and have breakfast, “help” him shower and get dressed, maybe make his lunch, etc. Yesterday, though, he told me to go back to sleep and he’d call me later, so I slept in. When I got up, I noticed a sticky note on the lamp wishing me a happy birthday. There were more on the window blinds, door knob, 3 on the floor between the bedroom and bathroom, and then in the bathroom…they were everywhere! Some said happy birthday, some said he loves me, I’m beautiful, smart, funny, artistic, sexy, and bunches of other compliments. I sent him a photo of myself all smiley and teary and told him I love him so much.

Downstairs in the kitchen was a huge bouquet of carnations — that’s the Capricorn flower — in all different colors and a new box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch, my fave cereal. A note told me to eat up and then get ready to go out because my chauffeur would be there at 11 to take me out for some fun. I didn’t have any idea who this chauffeur might be or where we were going, but I gobbled up like half the box and then got all prettied up for a day on the town. I stuck a flower in the button hole of my sport coat and it was all kinds of sunny and sort of a warm day so I could look extra cute without being bundled under my winter coat.

Promptly at 11, I discovered a chauffeur and his accomplices on the doorstep: Alec and my friends Sean and Robbie! Robbie had her mom’s H2 and was prepared to drive us out to lunch at a place of my choosing, then to the movies for Les Miserable, and finally to a bookstore where I would be given a gift card and 1 hour to shop. After that, it was off to the restaurant for dinner with friends and family to celebrate. But the best laid plans… :) I wanted the bookstore before the movie and then spent so much time there that we didn’t have time to see the movie before dinner. However, I had a ton of new books and a chocolatey coffee drink and was feeling no pain {bouncebouncebounce!}

To my ultimate surprise :) we had the private room in the back of the restaurant because it was packed with all the family and a bunch of my friends (and a whole pack of Italian waiters in form-fitting black pants!). Happy Birthday To Me! We ate, we laughed, we told  funny stories of everyone’s past birthdays, we discovered who was the oldest (Grams, 75) and who was the youngest (Robbie, 19), I talked my way out of getting smacked on the butt by everyone in the room, and I had my glass of wine with my lasagna. I actually sipped from a lot of different wines until I discovered that I like a sweet red one best.

I also discovered that 2 glasses makes me giggly…and a little bit of a husband molester. Which then brought us to the evening… ;)

Jazz bought me a corset! It was scorching just looking at it and petting it, but then he helped me put it on, got me into my petticoat and clunky black boots, and… Well, it was a very VERY very good night. I’m surprised he made it to work on time today, actually. I’ve barely managed to do much of anything because I’m just feeling so very satisfied ;) So. Very.

Be Gone October!

October sucked. I’m glad it’s over.

I know most of November will be spent recovering from October. There are still a lot of floods, fires and people without electricity, in addition to the thousands now homeless due to Hurricane Sandy. November will be when they rebuild and, if you’re able to donate, I know the Red Cross’s disaster relief campaign will help them. (You can also donate to the Red Cross’s “where the need is greatest” campaign since there were other places hurt by Sandy and still more places suffering unrelated issues.)

I’ll be doing some rebuilding in November too, but on a couple of emotional levels and one physical level.

First up, a year does make a difference when surviving the death of a friend. I dreaded the coming of that anniversary, mourned all over again, but it wasn’t as sharp and gouging as it was. As I expected it to be. I could see the good times and share the memories a lot easier with this much time in between. Even a few months ago it was worse than it is now. I can think of him and smile.

Also on the emotional front is recovering from over a year’s worth of being used by someone I now believe to be a liar and emotional vampire. I put a lot of effort into supporting this person, worrying about him, and letting him mess with my emotions, only to now find out from several sources that he’s just an emotional abuser. He drew me in with lies, kept me in with more lies and “poor me” stories, but I know the truth now and I’m done with him. (I don’t want to get in a fight with those who still support him or him directly, otherwise I’d name him right here.)

Lastly, I’m recovering physically from this broken wrist. Even prettied up and having let Grams “bedazzle” me over the weekend doesn’t really disguise the fact there’s a rock on my arm that’s real effing inconvenient. Doing most everything with my non-dominant hand just makes me feel like I’m an idiot or like I’m trying to use someone else’s hand and my psychic powers are on the fritz. Where is it most annoying, in the way, and sometimes dangerous to have a cast on your dominant hand? During sex. Yep, apparently I use my left hand a lot there and I need to not do that now before I knock Jazz unconscious or hurt myself worse. (Yelling “ow!” is a good way to stop the fun stuff fast.) Of course, the solution my very smart hubby came up with involved a certain red tie I’m already fond of and our headboard. I can handle 6 weeks of that no problem ;) It’d be nice if I didn’t need help clipping a coupon, though. And driving? Forget about it.

You guys have been amazingly wonderful with your giant funny book recommendation list! Seriously, I’m up to my ears in good books to read and I absolutely thank you for listing your favorites. I’m going to make a page of recommendations (maybe this weekend) so it’s always around and you can add your funny book recommendations to it whenever you find something new. If you have a goodreads shelf for your funnies, leave a link to it and be prepared for a friend invite or thirty ;) Really, thanks you guys :)

So here’s to getting rid of October and welcome November! :D I swear it had better be awesome…

My Smexy Nerd

Jazz is wearing a vest today. It’s new. He looks very sleek and professional.

He’s also wearing his glasses today because he didn’t realize he’d run out of contacts. He looks nerd-smexy in them.

It took a looooooooong time for me to let him out of the bedroom once he was dressed this morning.

I do believe that tonight I’m going to get him on the couch with the vest and shirt undone, show off that gorgeous chest. Pants open and down far enough for fun, of course. And I’ll put the tie I’m wearing to good use too. Maybe a couple uses.

Why?

Because you’ve distracted me all day long and I can’t take it anymore!

You have been warned.

Don’t dawdle getting home.

Suddenly, It All Matters to Me

There’s an article in Salon.com called “Ethical Porn” where the interviewer talks to Devon Hunter about his new porn site Anteros Media.

Now I’ve never had a membership anywhere, but I’ve seen plenty of videos both professional and amateur all over the web. It never really occurred to me to look up the actors/models to even know their names let alone get to know them at all. I don’t really know if I should feel bad about that or not. I know I used them. Pre-Jazz ;) I watched porn to learn something, get off, discover fantasies, etc. Nowadays, I watch it sometimes for that middle reason or to understand something I read about like {gulp} sounding. (No on that, thanks!)

Regardless, they did their job, I enjoyed it or didn’t, and we both moved on.

Some things about Anteros that’s supposed to set it apart from other porn companies:

  • One camera and one take, so the actors aren’t on set for like 4 hours, no fluffers or whatever, and it’s more like real-time and real-life.
  • These guys know each other, so they’re comfortable in this situation and attracted to each other.
  • They’re actually gay or bi, so they LIKE what they’re doing with each other.

Suddenly, all these things matter to me, but specifically that last one. A friend of mine wrote something on his blog recently about a video he saw where the one guy didn’t come: he squeezed a bag of something to try and fake it, and people knew it was fake and said so in comments on the site. That makes me wonder what the heck was wrong that he couldn’t come. I honestly don’t want to watch something knowing the guys aren’t into each other or have to fake it. {yuck} That makes me feel a little dirty in a really bad way, like I helped force them do it or something.

Anteros is also doing something I’ve never seen before that’s really kind of cool: there’s this section of the site called “Stories”. You can either read them yourself, or have this very smexy guy read them to you. I’ve never tried an audiobook of m/m before, though I have had my lovery husband read to me a few times ;) I think you’ll recognize one of the authors in there as JP Barnaby.

smooch smileySo yesterday, after watching the preview of Mitch Vaughn and Spencer Williams (who are married, btw) getting it on in a squeaky clean kitchen–which is my favorite place for it, honestly–I bought a little membership when I got home from work so I could see the whole video…and maybe reenact it with my very Spencer-like pirate named Jazz ;)

And I could honestly see the difference. I didn’t need a billion camera angles, it was obvious they’d done this together before, and considering they said “I love you” a couple times, they definitely liked each other a whole lot.

Jazz and I didn’t have any whipped cream, but we did have honey. Takes forever to lick that stuff off and dinner was very late. Thank you, Anteros Media! It was fun.

Because I did it again…

Old Posts Revisited > It’s All About The Glasses

Just some growly, alpha male, man-handling, with a little ”gonna make you scream when you come, baby boy” that’s all wrapped up in a bespeckled nerd.

God bless furry librarians!

{sigh}

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